Feeling Weird

Been an odd... well... week, I suppose. And when I say 'odd' for the most part I mean 'bad'. Granted, there were some good moments. Ok, so in the entire week there was maybe... 10 hours worth of what I would deem to be good or even great times. The rest was either average and not-shit, or bad. Being me, it tends to be bad. And yes, I am aware of how depressing I am.

So I happen to be feeling quite down as I write this. Well, I chose to write this because I'm unhappy. Don't really want to burden my friends, so I'll bitch to the internet. Its like, my friends say they're always there, and I know they mean it, but when it kinda counts I stop believeing it. Stupid mind. I've never liked my mind all that much... It annoys me constantly.

So in a week my major production of Cloudstreet will be almost over. IT IS NOT COMING TOGETHER PROPERLY AND WE ONLY HAVE TWO REHEARSALS LEFT!!!!!!!!!!! This is not a good thing. It is making me anxious and nervous. Tomorrow is a scary-long rehearsal though, so I've got fingers crossed that it'll work out...

Though I think my biggest problem with the production is just that it takes up all my time. To be honest, I'm really looking forward to getting my life back. That'll be nice. A life where I can either go straight home after school, or go hang out with friends, but either way not be going to a rehearsal.

In addition to that, I've just got homework. Homework that I should be doing, but am not. Homework that includes studying for a SAC I have this Friday, a production day :S But so far, I cbf opening my books...

I have now well and truly burdened the internet with my problems. Not that it matters, its doubtful anybody other than possibly my best friend will see this, so eh. Do feel a bit better now, though.